For those of us who have suffered from mental health issues, here is an observation:
The weight of that history, the sense that it is something we are “always battling with”, the experience of sadness, the memories of being hurt, the lack of energy, the “unfairness”, the feeling of being unable to think outside of the dark bubble…
- All of THAT, however it is manifesting itself in a particular moment … is just a memory. A memory of past pain in our present consciousness. It isn’t ALL of that history. It is ONLY the memory of that history in the moment. It is occurring in our consciousness, and nowhere else. And only now.
There are plenty of ways that may and sometimes do help us to deal with mental health issues. But still, fundamentally, the main issue we are dealing is this moment, right here, right now. If it feels like an enormous accumulation of pain…well that feeling is itself just a memory in the moment.
We can and should notice it. In fact trying to push it away feeds it, and it will keep coming back. But when we notice it, look at it, we can then watch it pass by like every other memory and thought that we’ve ever had.
And if we think that is impossible, see how clearly all of history is forgotten instantly, When You Stub Your Toe.
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